When God talks to me

This is a Faith post. I wanted to push it off a bit, fearing that it was to heavy to start out with, and that it might turn people off, but I decided that I am going to write it anyway.

My journey into faith has been a bumpy one. I went from having really negative experiences at church as a child, to basically no faith at all, and then after meeting my future husband at college, I started my journey back.

Our church has been offering a small group study on faith, and different ways that people experience God. Joe and I are taking the class. It has been very interesting. My whole reason for going was because I sometimes feel like God is pushing me to do things, but I tend to resist Him. I am never sure if its really Him, or something else. I want to learn to recognize his voice, because there is no doubt to me that he is working in my life. I also want to learn to be excited about Him working in me, because frankly, right now when it happens, it freaks me out.

I heard on the radio yesterday that one of the most powerful things you can do as a Christian is to share your testimony. Non believers can dispute history and doctrine, but they cannot dispute your personal life experiences. Well, I have had a few. They aren't profound miracles, just little things.

For example, 2 years ago I felt that our church would benefit from having gardens to promote fellowship and outreach to the community. I ignored that feeling. I ignored it for weeks. Then one day the sermon was about stewardship of our earth, and growing things and I really felt that our Pastor was talking directly to me. Freaked me out. So, after I went to visit with him, and he got me pointed in the right direction, and that summer we had church gardens. It was the beginning of my road to involvement in my Church.

I am now on the missions committee. Now when an idea pops into my head I am less scared to share it.


Another example just happened to me last night. I was asked to do the devotional for our missions  committee meeting this month. Two weeks ago I looked around the internet and found one that I thought would be good to share, I printed it out, and didn't really think about it much at all. The title was "God's Guidance" and it was about lifting your troubles to God. 

"trust in the Lord with all your heat, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge  Him and he shall direct your paths. " -proverbs 3:5-6

After the meeting I came home, I was contacted by a friend who was asking for prayers for his wife who was just diagnosed with a brain tumor. It sent me reeling. That is just not something was expecting to hear. In addition to that, another friend  of mine has a newborn baby who is struggling with illness right now. I felt overwhelmed with worry for these families.

Then someone pointed out to me that the devotional that I had picked out 2 weeks ago to be read today had the exact words that I needed to hear.  Some may say that it is coincidence, but I believe that it is God working in my life.

It is amazing to me. So amazing that I felt led to share it in a public forum which is another thing that I don't do. Hopefully some day I will quit being scared when I see God working in my life. For now I am just glad to have my eyes opened up to it.